To have a well rounded life one should spend 20 years a soldier, 20 a family man, and 20 a holy man -- I'll just stick with the first and add a few years. I'm tired, I've been scarred from combat, continue to be sore, frustrated, etc., but it's understandable. I never should have grown up. I wear my silver hair proudly . At least I still have it. Better to dream than to sleep. Better to sleep than awake. Better to awake than to suffer prolongued loss of conciousness. Gunga ga lunga.