Dear Reader, These writings will embark you on an emotional journey. A journey of hope and despair, love and pain, joy and loss from a scarred heart that continues to beat on. If you are familiar with the author, it may be a difficult read. It is neither a condemnation nor a confession. It was not written to be read. It is what wanted out. Take your time. Emotion is best taken a teaspoon at a time rather than a pitcher. Contained herein is an understanding of me.