Plans of Suicide

Silent/Noose -- Outlawpoet contest

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Please Note: This is purely fictional. Although I do suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts, this is not me at all. I write these types of poems to release suicidal thoughts but never have I acted on plans such as what is mentioned in the poem that follows. Please don't read if the content may trigger you.
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Plans of Suicide

She was silent as she walked to her closet
where she kept the noose
she will use someday soon --
while no one is home.

The noose she made a while back
when she was left alone by her family.
The family had no idea what she was thinking
or that she was even depressed.

She had already planned her demise
up to the exact elm tree by the lake
she would use with the bench
she would step off to end her life.

They would find out the day
she took her own life.
The note already written
would explain everything,

but for now they were left
in the dark and she liked it that way.
She was afraid of someone stopping her
from doing the one thing she looked forward to.

Her death was planned the day she was dumped
by her one true love.
How was she to tell her family?
They were perceived as perfect.

Compared to them she felt damaged,
useless and tired of living.
She thought of herself as a loser
at all that she tried.

Today is hell for her.
Tomorrow is another day.
She silent puts the noose and note away,
until she has the nerve to commit the ACT.