Ragged Doll

I hurt myself again today, I wonder if I will ever heal. I just can't deal.

Tears fall from my face
they race like crystalline drops.
I hate the taste of it, I think with a frown.
The tears dampen the ground I lay on.
Shame courses through my body
it is so shoddy, so unreliable.

Pain and fear is all which I feel,
I just can't deal.
My ankle locks up,
I fall and close my eyes in fear.
That is when I feel the first tear.
I allow them to flow like a river,
and I begin to shiver.
My hopes and my dream ends with that fall
I am now like a ragged doll.
Carried to wherever I go to,
I have nothing to do.

My hopes, my dream,
end with that last fall.
I am nothing but an ugly ragged doll.