Overflow

It just sometimes can't be contained

It spreads right through me
like a sickening disease
speeds up my heart
and fills up my lungs
My eyes get beady
and fill with unshed tears
my mind fills with anger
and of these unwanted fears
I try so hard to shove it away
to store it and hide it from view
sometimes it's too hard
sometimes it's just what you put me through
that makes it boil
and overflow
My fists clench tight into my palms
I hold my breath
and I count to ten
I close my eyes
I close my mind
I'm not going to let it win
for you are not worth it
you never have
you never will
I open my eyes
a smile on my face
and you no longer
are apart of existence
you are not worthy