Poem 09/22/2025

Poem about current feelings

Is there a dream lying dormant within my heart? Perhaps there was a long time ago. Will I find the faith within to press restart? When I can no longer resist my God-given path, will I still be afraid to grow?

Does destruction elude me for a price? The only thing I want to get rid of is my evil ways. When it’s all said and done, the only thing that matters is Jesus’ sacrifice. As I struggle to make the best choices on each of my days.

When my mind goes to those dark places, I seek refuge in my Bible, searching for a calming verse to read. All the Word is my comfort, as my heart does so many races. When I’m lost in thought, I ignore the times I've fleed.

Running from God only harmed me. Distancing myself from the Cross did not help at all. In Christ, that will be the only way to be free. Delaying the inevitable, how much longer can I stall?

If this is all that's left of me. A broken shell of a soul lost without proper rest. With Jesus in Heaven one day is where I desire to be. I'm praying that I start to wake refreshed.

The nighttime wanderings are beginning to bother me, it’s true. Where I wake while walking. It scares me to think of why I do. Am I self-stalking?

Creating visions in sleep I'm just trying to avoid. Fighting the nightmares more often than not. Figuring out that I get more and more annoyed. When those memories come up that I thought I had forgot.

Now all I can do is seek the Lord more to help alleviate the upset. And not forget I am not alone. For Jesus already has paid my debt. And I need to remember that eternal love He’s shown.