Web Diary Of A Coyote: Sept 22 2025

Claire - Shattered Dreams

I guess you could say the fairies are surfin' on the Autumn leaves now. I've just been drowning in the creek of apathy. A goblin or some metaphysical creature bit my leg and ran off. So that's why I'm not doing much, lately.. I'm outside a platinum part of the day and that's probably why I got the bite. I'm not one of those people who likes sitting around and playing video games. I haven't even had a video game console since 2019. To me, there's so much more to life than merging your spirit with the wires. Become that wind gust creature and that's probably one of the reasons why I dislike hanging out with certain people. "Hey, you wanna hang out? We'll do nothing all day but press buttons". No when I'm hanging out with people, I expect to do stuff. I do like old 3D platformers like Crash, Spyro and Rayman though but I don't wanna make that my whole realm. God didn't produce us for that. It's a voodoo doll to people asking me if they wanna just lay around and smoke weed. I really don't care about it. You want me to go through the forest fire with you or do you want me to be a biological mannequin? This is me. I wanna hang out with people but you better wanna do stuff.

I wanna give birth to the book of Claire. So, this started all the way back in August of 2023. I get a message from this REALLY cute blonde chick named... YOU GUESSED IT Claire. I guess you could say I really saw her as the ultimate time traveling fairy. She loved 1980s relics, especially Duran Duran. And AT THE TIME, she wasn't puking out the usual language of "BRO" and "RIZZ". I LOATHE THAT KIND OF TALK! So I guess I saw her as my possible humanoid key to unlock me. She had a crush on me and I obviously liked her back.

Here's the demon though. She's stapled to Montana. VERY far away from where I live. So I friend zoned her. I knew it was nearly impossible for me to crash land in that state. Makes sense. Well cut to March 2024 and I regret it. I would have visions of us dancing through out an empty neon mall and we combine as a barrage of rainbows. Think the movie "Career Opportunities" from 1991. Kind of like that. I put so much spiritual meat into trying to find her.

After 11 months of doing so. February 2025, X marks the spot. I find the one and only Claire.. The girl is a brat... I was so impaled that she wasn't exactly who I thought she was that I literally nearly vomited. My face didn't rain but I was dry heaving. The trap of what idealization does to you... Like a lot of women I had a crush on or dated, she's not really a good person... Have I learned my lesson? Maybe........ Lol. Sadomasochistic trial and error, my friends. I'm just not the biggest fan of the "ungrateful woman" trope. I know not every female falls into that spectrum but a lot of them do.. I know she wasn't a catfish because the vlogs where she's talking, matches the voice messages she sent me.