If Only

Wishing for change

If only you knew
How deep your words cut.
Carving through my chest.

I can’t breathe.
I can’t scream.
I’m motionless.
Waiting on you to turn back
Into the man you seemed to be
When we first met.

I’m withering away
Under the weight
Of your insecurities.

You’re making me less than
So you can feel more than
What you are.
It’s gone too far...
If only.