Life

A brief poem/song-in-progress about life i just kind of wrote with incoherence.

Yo I'm not suicidal,
I don't wanna fucking die.
Lately it just feels like
shit's been building up so high.

Got nowhere to run to,
man nowhere to hide.
Maybe I should just stop
keeping this inside.
I feel like a failure
pushing everyone away.
trying to break those walls down,
that's all they say.
No one understands
all this pain I felt.
I been losing all my friends,
I don't know when it ends.

I know it's my fault,
but I don't know how to change.
therapy don't work,
man those pills just a joke.
I'm waking up every day,
I don't know what to say
these thoughts in my head
they grow stronger all day

Smoke a little weed
man it helps to distract
Feeling so depressed
i always try to suppress
these emotions inside
just so hard to hide
Feel like it's a ride
with no end in sight.