Existance

Written August 5, 2011

There's a moment where your heart is really unable to break anymore. When there isn't any more disappointments. And even the positive stuff just seems like its probably not true.

There is a difference between becoming numb to emotions due to being overwhelmed and truly being void of emotion. Sadly, I've hit the latter.

There was a time in my life when I was so depressed that I rejected everything and everyone. There were people in my life that loved me so fully, they would have done anything for me and I just ignored it. It was a dark and lonely place. But I eventually came passed it and started dealing with my emotions.

Today, I asked a deep question that I know somewhere inside of me I long for a reciprocation of love. And yet when I got a mediocre response, it didn't even phase me. My heart can't break over this any more. I guess this is how you truly move on from a deep emotion.
I'm not sad or glad.
I'm not disappointed or letdown.
I'm just here.
Existing.