Thoughts

a poem from 2010

Thoughts running through my head
Cause me to dread
The coming days ahead
trying to figure out why I am still here...
in this relationship...after 20 long hard years...
we have both cheated...
we have both been downright evil to each other...
thoughts running through my head...

Thoughts running through my head
Cause me to dread
The coming days ahead
why are we still here?
love? needs? fear?
thoughts running through my head...

Thoughts running through my head
Cause me to dread
The coming days ahead
why am I still here...in this world...
where do I belong?...am I needed?...
thoughts running through my head...

Thoughts running through my head
Cause me to dread
The coming days ahead
is it the same over there?
does he feel it too?
are we really through?
thoughts running through my head...

Thoughts running through my head
Cause me to dread
The coming days ahead
will it ever end?
this need to feel .................