Overflowing

Written after the death of my husband.

Overflowing

Overflowing - that's how I feel.
Everything flowing over.
Emotions upside down and backward.
Is my happiness over?

Don't tell me that things will get better.
That I'll see him again very soon.
I want to see him this minute.
I want to sing a HAPPY tune!

I can't remember. I can't forget.
Where did I park my car?
Did I pay each and every bill?
Have I driven way too far?

Why does this song make me crazy?
Why can't I cry right now?
I am overwhelmed and aimless.
Normal? I don't remember how.

Overflowing - up and down
And in and out and sad.
Lord, this journey is a long one,
One I wish I didn't have.