Inside

i ache to show you

i ache to tell you
how i feel inside
split me open
pull me apart
look inside me.
each and every one of you
all the different seasons of you
see the shell
but not the core.
pick me up
shake me
hear me rattle inside,
ponder me
or walk by me
without a glance downward.
i seem to be silent
either way.
i watch you
sometimes i think i see you
all of you
each one of you
but with a puff or a breeze
it's gone.
caught up in the wind
twisting
swirling
violent
and gone again.
too heavy to lift
too dense to drift.
you don't look
or care to
brutal winds
keep it cold
keep you head down
eyes ahead
oblivious.
perhaps it's all
best,
cliched and numb
purpose and sight
rooted in the madness.
the leaks change
the shell cracks
the lonely beneath
wraps in cold embrace
the wind shapes,
i split open
shriveled
fragile
twisted
true,
pounding to be seen
fading
right before the eyes
of all the single points of you