In the cave

About living in a cave where you desperately want to leave but don't want to leave

I can see it
through the darkness of this cave
on a ledge that spirals to the top
and out into a lighted world

one slip from falling in
to the hole which will carry me to the bottom
but i become blinded by the darkness
and fall into the depth of the pit

again i am here,
too far from the light
to contain the hope i had before
so i wallow on the cold hard rock

once here
it gets harder to leave
i kinda like it here
like the misery it brings

but eventually
i will feel pulled by the light
and the strange joy i desperately hope it will bring
so again i will start the never ending trek to the top
with a fear of falling, and a fear of reaching
the light.