regret.

This is a poem about self doubt and regret about bad desicions.

Regret.

I’m young and reckless,

Old Enough to know right from wrong

I make mistakes,

I’m human



As I lay there, heart racing

But still dead,

The fluids pumping steady through my veins

Keeping what’s left alive



A part of me wants to fall asleep

And never have to face my problems,

Yet my chest still moves steadily

Holding on



My body lifeless, warm and still

Family stands by waiting for those eyes,

They long to see again, make one last move



I regret the joy I had had that night

For it’s what put my family

In the agony and pain they deal with now





That last gulp I had that burned

Like hot coals lingers

I wish I could take it back

Too late



I wake from this horrible mistake

Half conscious

Behold, my torn loved ones



I look at the respirator

As it beeps consistently thing,

Why did I have to wake up?

Why can’t I just fall back asleep?