Questionable Motives

i loved a guy, yet still felt attraction to others. it made me question my motives.

I devoted my heart to one
But yet…
I still feel for another’s care
Am I a betrayer?

My love is requited immensely
But yet…
I still long for another’s warmth.
Am I confused?

I say forever and always to a shining face
But yet…
I still wish for another’s company.
Am I a liar?

When I see him now, my face does light up
But it does not cause my heart to scurry and jump.
Only when love’s physical side shows
Does my core leap for joy and thump.
Was I wrong?

Wishing, waiting, wanting…
For us to be together
All this time has passed—listless and lustful
His touch finally fulfilled my longing and needing
Was I obsessed?