reality

my reality.

My life is slipping farther and farther away
I’m losing my grip on what’s real
I’m turning insane day by day
Shamelessly I tell you how I feel
I hope you know I’m not okay
I wonder if you see the real me

Please answer the questions that haunt me
I want you to know I’m about to pull the plug
I just want you to see what I see
Only to see how far my life has sunk
To be like them compared to me
They see their life. I see luck

Does anyone care how I feel?
They just really don’t care.
To me, they’re not real
Talking as if they have to, as if a dare.
Please say this life isn’t real.
This life is just so unfair

Could this all be a dream?
This life is more like a nightmare.
Or is it really what it seems?
Way to much for me to bare

I see the way they look when I walk by
I see the way they stare
They make me want to jump, just to die
All I can do is pretend not to care
All I can do is let out a sigh
Can you tell me how this shit is fair?

Now I know I have lost my fear of falling
I know I will take the plunge, the big dive, the great fall
Will there be anyone I know at my funeral?
Or will there be anyone there at all?