Screaming

Trying to let go of any pain caused during my youth.

Sadness creeps and slowly engulfs me,
Takes me by the hand and suffocates me with it's binds,
Tangled in a web of hate,
I slowly give myself to the pain.

Tears continue to flow and run to my wrists,
My heart slowly breaks,
As my head enlarges with frustration,
Pain is more than just a word.

I scream silently, with a smile,
I dislike you, all while I'm laughing at your jokes,
I can hate you with kindness,
And kiss you with ice.

I can pretend to be happy,
Smiling isn't so hard,
I can be anything you want me to be,
Your not so hard to fool.

Open your eyes,
I'm nothing I pretend,
To bad you can't see,
I'm crying inside.