Screaming

A poem I wrote when I felt very alone and depressed.

Lost with so much,
Need to let go,
Too much to think about,
Time throws all things together at the same moment,
Why aren’t the Gods being kind?
Why can’t I find the answers?

Searching down this road,
Asking so many questions,
But getting no answers,
I’m so confused,
I smile but I scream inside,
I hide behind the smile,
To the world I am fine,
Inside I’m screaming,
No one hears my secret torment.

Falling into a deep dark hole,
I feel myself at the bottom,
Hit the bottom and I am alone.

My screams for help go unheard,
I sit up and cry no one can hear me no one will help me,
The days pass me by,
I feel as though after each day I am not myself,
I live a lie,
I want to tell the truth yet I do not know how,
I do not know how to stop this lie.

It is easier to live a lie,
Then it is to tell the truth,
Screaming inside,
Smiling to the world,
I step forward and have strength.