sober

this is my state of mind about becoming clean of drugs and how much ofa struggle it is.

pain is all i've come to know
it's the feelings inside i cannot show.
maybe this will break me,
maybe this will set me free.
can i get past the wall,
or will sober be a word that can save it all?
shatterd by the lies,
eyes are bloodshot from the cries.
contemplating right and wrong,
drowing in this mellow song.
so many things i cannot get back,
my innocence soon will crack.
so scared of losing it all,
i've got nowere left to fall.
sober is what i dream,
nothing is what it seems.
i know i'm the one to blame,
i know this life will never be the same.
my humilation has come to stay,
i cannot find my way.
sober is what i dream to be,
sober is a word that's haunting me.