Today

how the bad days make me feel.

Today is a whole new day.
Wake up, push the past away.
The person that I used to be,
I have confined to memory.

I'm not in school anymore.
There are new people in my life.
Everything at home has changed.
I have different dreams at night.

Yet a part of me from years ago
must still call my body 'home'.
As I sit and cry, I realise
It's all the same, deep inside.

All of my bad habits stick;
i'm still empty, the blood still drips.
I still lie and manipulate.
I put my mistakes down to fate.

I know that i'm not strong.
It's only me that's in the wrong.
I know I don't deserve to be
happy in your company.