Rejection

This poem was my very first poem ever, written at the age of 13

I have a fear of rejection.
It's like a rope around my neck.
Anything and everything I do,
has to be just right because,
Im in a black hole.
Fearing, ripping, stretching as each says no.

NO.
It pounds and screeches through my mind,
like I'm being hit by a car.
It tears at my heart,
like an enemy, trying to get in.
I'm trapped in a cage
and I want to get out.

Loneliness.
The feeling in my heart,
slices me to pieces,
like daggers shredding the flesh.

Some treat me like I'm stupid,
but I'm not.
Whenever I say something,
I fear being this clown,
In a world that is not a circus.

There is only one reason for why I scream.
I want to be heard.