Why do I always?

confusion...

Why do I always find it hard...
to live my life just like the rest
and try to enjoy it to the fullest;
 
Why do I always find it hard...
to find happiness that makes you smile
and make me feel that life is worthwhile;
 
Why do I always find it hard...
to ask something that I want to know,
thus my silence brings me sorrow;
 
Why do I always find it hard...
to tell someone just how I feel,
that I've always loved him for real.