I Feel for You

Another to my best friend and my grandmother. "If I could turn back time..."

To feel this pain.
To feel this strain.
A thought too clear,
of one so near.
Why must things seem so hard?
Why do I feel like I am in a rut?
Going no where.
My tires are spinning,
Digging deeper into a gully of the unknown.
Why do I feel at times, I do not want to go on.
I think about you and you're gone.
But yet others, I feel so alive.
No I don't cry, Yes I do cry.
Oh please just help me to make up my mind.
My heart is so confused.
I feel I have been abused.
Why did it have to be you?
Lost in the world of forgotten.
Or just to not be known alive.
Until now,
I have met a new.
A beau,
One that seems so close to you.
I can not hide,
I feel the pride,
As if you have come back to me
and stand by my side.