I Sink Further Into My Darkness

Too many feelings came over me and way too much pain came out of me...

Incessantly pondering the damage done to me
It is no wonder every day is a boundless hell
Unsounded loneliness is the plague of my existence
Carefully showing me the reaches of hell
Yet, I suffer with resistance
Praying soon I’ll find deliverance
And finally find a new state of existence

I can’t understand why I suffer calamities
Why I’m doomed to devout brutality
I have long carried the weight of insanity
And now I am bound by cruel fantasies

I have never comprehended my state of torment
Never fully understood why
Now that everyone else has found their contentment
I stay still in view of time’s eye
Dying infinite deaths in my loneliness
Trying desperately to fill my emptiness
All the while knowing my hopelessness

So I suffer the question of nothingness
I’ve lost myself in all this blackness
Sinking into false indifference
Never able to fully see
What’s wrong with me?

-11/3/04 (10:43 PM)