Not Ready Still

My wants battle with my fears

I want to feel loved again.
I want to feel love again.
I want to feel trusted again.
I want to feel trust again.
I want to feel the void of my loneliness filled.
I want to share in someone's life.
I want someone to share in my life.

But I am afraid.
I choose to avoid any situation in which deep emotional bonds may form.
My wants battle with my fears.
I am not ready
Still.

Originally written: September 1990
revised: 14 June 2001