Between Worlds

thoughts and doubts on what I am meant to do

Putting life on hold,
to wait, float in limbo,
between worlds.

Panic replaced by numbness,
despair by apathy.
I would welcome the stress again
if it would jumpstart something,
anything.

My only emotion
left to flare and spark
as brightly as they all used to
is a bitter, foul hatred
for those who
dictate my life.

Unsettled, knowing deeply
that I still desire the end
yet sensing that my heart
is no longer invested
in the means.

Still, what would I do
if I left this situation,
exited from limbo,
to choose one of the worlds?