Shouldn't I? WIP

Ver 1.9

4/4, slow tempo, 4 bar intro, 8 bar verse/chorus

Friday night, round two a.m., I'm-
Sitting here in the dark again, I'm-
Reaching for a reason,
I.
Can't.
Find.

Just another something, that cuts so deep,
'Nother fading mem'ry, I don't wanna keep,
Another sting, while I long for peace,
Drifting into darkness,
I
Can't
Reach...

Shouldn't I be feelin'-
something here tonight?
Shouldn't I be wanting'
a way to make me right?
Wouldn't it be better
to find a way to be?
Instead of always hoping,
Wanting to be free...

Maybe there's an answer,
hiding out of sight,
That'll pull me back, and
lead me to the light?
Shouldn't I be wantin'
the fire to burn?
Shouldn't I be waiting'
for another day to turn?

Shouldn't I... take one more bite,
To prove to me I'm still alive?
Shouldn't I... Be chasing another dawn,
To find a self I've never known?

Maybe there's no fighting back?
From one last gentle kiss?

Shouldn't I find...
an edge that doesn't miss... (Shouldn't I?)

Why. Shouldn't. I?