Misunderstood

topics may be sensitive to some A writing about being misunderstood and not feeling seen

Not seen
Not seen
As a person
As a friend
As a daughter
As a sister
As a lover
Shut up
Please shut up
My heart can't take it
My feelings are hurt
I feel so numb
So numb
Not seen
Even if i feel seen
It feels forced
It feels fake
I know people dont hate me
But why does it feel like that
Not understood
When i do something
I get looked at crazy
I get so misunderstood
Tried to change as a person
But have my own wrongs
Have my own rights
I feel like my head will explode
I tried to cope with the pain of the past
If i remember
I can't take it
Hurt myself
Hurt other people
Didn't love myself
Love myself
Emotions are so conflicting
In this world of pain
I was just a child when it happened
I went crazy
I seen things that i didnt want to see
I said things that I didn't want to say
I did things that I didn't want to do
I shouldn't have done it
How can i be happy
When my life fell apart
When my voice was never heard
When i felt like everything was falling apart
And no one listened
Or tried to get me help
misunderstood.