It hurts

it is about a girl's unsaid feeling and emotions.

It hurts

I can't keep smiling anymore
Because that hurts,
Knowing that they all get the wrong idea
They'll say " oh! Look how happy she is , always smiling.
I bet she is happy with her life . she must've a carefree life"
Little did they know
They didn't know is that I am dying from inside .
I can't live like this anymore, hiding my feelings,
Running away from the emotions building up inside me.
I don't want to be alone,
I want them to listen
Listen to what I have to say?
Listen to what I want?
I don't want to live in depression,
I want to fly
I want to chase my dreams,
I want to find my true -self,
My capabilities , my strengths, my weakness.
I want to tell them all this, but can't find my voice.
Knowing that I won't be able to say all of my feelings out aloud,
It hurts.