Am I Awake Yet?

coming out of the fog , but reluctantly

Waking from a long dream;
Where I do nothing but scream -
The silence overwhelms me
Absorbed in the fog.

I have no control of my life;
I lash out in the midst of strife.
Tumbling, turning, round and round,
End over end I go.

Will this nightmare ever end?
I pray my will shall not bend.
I crawl towards the light,
Hoping not to miss it.

What waits for me in light of day?
Coming out of the long night's fray.
I realize where I am -
Do I want to stay?

Finally awake and being sound
I see where I have been found;
The long night was but a dream,
But do I want to remain?


-20 lines.

This was written for Out of The Fog contest. 8/5/23
Reminding me when I was in the hospital, fighting for my life in summer 2022.