The truth untold

You don't know the half of it

I can force a smile,
I can shed fake tears,
I can laugh without humor,
I can age without years

I can't let go of the past,
It haunts me like a goats,
I can't move forward,
because of the lump in my throat

I can be mad for no reason
I can hurt with no pain,
I can be locked up with no treason,
I can change but stay the same

I can't love without hate,
because one comes with the other,
I can't give and not take,
and I feel like I suffer