The ride of loss

Explaining the feel of guilt from loss

No immediately feeling of the loss

Creeping up slowly, then suddenly from within the soul

Wreaking havoc on the quiet moments of the mind

Silent nights are things of past

Waking every morning going about the day

Wondering, how long will these feelings stay

Laughing one minute then crying without warning the next

Emotions roller-coaster not allowing the participant to exit the ride

Weeks, sometimes months go by

Then one day the clouds clear a little

An unknown thought comes through the fog

Just enough where one is not miserable one second and happy the next

An emotional reprieve or so one thinks

A new culprit comes along that lurks in the mind

Wondering why the feeling of sadness is not there anymore

Sadness stayed for so long becoming a part of everyday and evermore

Not having that feeling feels wrong

The feeling of guilt now fills that void

Guilt of not feeling sad about the loss from within

Yet another roller-coaster ride is here

Not as bad as the first, but an uneasy and a long ride still the same