Freedom

I wrote this at a dark time

Haziness clouds my mind
Like the gas I want to fill my lungs
I'd do anything to take the pain away
The sweet relief of death would be so kind

Sobriety seemed just out of grasp
I reached and reached for her
The feeling of not being here always made me pull back
Right when I had a hand on her she released her clasp

I stand perched upon bridges
Waiting for the perfect moment
To set my foot right off the edge
But every time I try to jump my arms grab a hold the ridges

The hole in my chest grows larger each day
Expanding til I eventually explode
It stretches continuously with nothing to fill the void
One day it will take the rest of me and leave me to decay

An immaculate girl has the capability to whither away and this just goes to show it
Although I may seem amazing to you, inside it's all down hill
You may see me and never think twice
But sooner or later there is just going to be one more parted poet