Love

Realizing not everyone will be loved

Love
All my life I've loved deeply from my heart and I've been treated like a nobody
Everyone says that a girl's first love is her dad
But for me my father made me suffer for years before realizing that he never loved me
Throughout the years I've pined for love from people who were supposed to love me because I was a part of their family
Now I realize that their love was conditional because as soon as my life fell apart everyone disappeared and treated my mom, my sister, and me like strangers
The hardest part of all of this is that the one person that I fell in love with also did the same thing to me
The moment I needed him he threw me out liked I was no one to him and now I barely believe in love anymore
Even though I still love him more than anyone in my life I now realize that I have to face reality and my destiny
I'm not destined to be happy or loved just like my mother
I'm glad I never got married or else the cycle would've continued with me
It's safe to say I'm no longer that little girl who believes love is life