I Won't Give Up

A personal poem of mine

I've been fighting this depression
Since I was thirteen years old.

I'm seeming to lose this battle

But I'm not giving up just yet.

I'm trying to free these demons

That lives inside of my soul.

They are taking away my happiness

Giving me sadness and pain.

Every day I look into the mirror

Telling myself that I am ugly.

That I'm not worth living in this world

But this is the demons talking.

I wish they would just go away

Because they are tearing my life apart.

I'm tired of being this insecure girl

Who thinks badly of herself.

Feeling as if the world hates her.

I will fight this depression.

Fight the demons that live inside of me.

Controlling my emotions and thoughts.

If I keep fighting, I know one day I will win.

I have walls built around my heart.

Not letting anyone in and always pushing people away.

Because I don't want to be hurt again.

I always smile and fake happiness.

Just for others to be happy.

Every time I smile or laugh.

It becomes real and the walls around my heart

Breaks down and happiness is making its way back.

I am overcoming this blood-sucking illness

Slowly but surely and I won't give up.