Alone

A free-form poem about depression and loneliness.

The days they pass slow and brutal
I constantly stare into the hole you left.
Imagining you crawling back out of it.
Because while it hurt when you were here
It was a good kind of hurt.

But I’ve got these demons inside
And these demons, some said
Were just my loneliness terrorizing my head
But I don’t know because I don’t know who I am anymore
And that’s just the truth
Maybe they can help me figure this out
Cause I just don’t know what to do.

The demons seal the gaps between my sanity
Like stitches to an open wound
But it’s nothing compared to the healing I’d get by having you.
Now that you’ve gone, and I have no chance of getting you back
Maybe those demons can stay because they won’t leave me, like you.

They rip, tear, and never care, but at least they’re there
Unlike you who left with no real reason behind it.
A misunderstanding that tarnished a relationship doomed to fail.
I get it now because you left so easily
You were just looking for a way out.

Yeah baby I know I have issues.
I know this life I struggle through
I know it much better than you.