Control (?)

How could I even explain this one...?

It took a second for you to enter my life
And make me believe that the beliefs I held were
Meaningless
In comparison to the dreams you led me to see,
And with my vision impaired I trusted the hand
That guided this leash
Which left feelings of ecstasy deep in my bones

And it took a moment for that drug to become
An addiction
That required ignorance to get by,
And that ignorance turned sour when put under
Your analytical eye

While I won't ever claim to be right,
I will say my apology was genuine enough
To make me cry,
Too early for you to be awake
But too late for me to sleep

I can't ever sleep.
Not with the lingering dread that one of two things could happen
Every time I take a minute to breathe.
Because of all the things we fight about
The thing that scars me most is the fact that I could leave.
I could tell you I want to leave...and you'd let me.
You'd let me without a second thought...
And it proves that trusting in your beliefs
Meant absolving any care you'd ever had for me.