Turmoils of my life

It is an introduction to one of my few problems that drives me crazy out and out.

Why few of my friends are covetous? Why they can't see me growing? Zillions of such questions swirl around my mind. I have never been into a friendship that sustained for more than a year. These moments of angst are creating a sense of despondency in the inner world of mine. I sometimes question myself whether I am that repulsive. I feel awful these days. I have no good friend to share my thoughts and aspirations. Thus, I am writing here..... I'll soon come up with great stories of my life that will leave you dumbstruck.