Painful feelings

one that's in progress any suggestions would be helpful.

Fealings brought back
Heart under attack
Confusing
Filled with doubts
Cant open the door to find a way out
Memories brought back
Wishing I had a way to stop the attack
Stop stop please
I need a way to stop falling to my knees
Everyone thinks relationships are a breeze
But they always fill my head with bees
Buzzing around hitting every spot with pain
Im losing and see no gain
I cant play this game
I cry and hang my head in shame
It hurts and confuses but theres no way to stop it