I see you

It is not exactly a poem.my first attempt in something like a poem.help to improvise.

A pang of excitement
A total blurriness of images
A shot of heartache
A slight doubt
A skipped heartbeat
Every time I see you
You seem to enjoy like I never exist
Maybe you will never know me

But, I see you in my future
I see you by my side
I see you walking with me
I see you laughing with me
I see you trying to hold my tears
I feel your lips on mine
I feel your shoulders to lie on
I feel you complementing me
I may never have this future
'Cause you will never know me

I search for you wherever I go
In a hope to catch a glimpse of you
Because you have no idea
how much smile you bring on my lips
how much happiness I feel
when I see
even if it is for seconds
I treasure those seconds
In the end, I will be left nothing
But those seconds

Not love, not crush
It is a pain
With pleasure it comes
but not perpetual
Still, I don't want to give up
And feel every moment
For I am not sure if I will feel this again
I wish you see me the way I see you!