Just a While

A poem for my baby boy - a year later

My heart aches so much inside,
The pain I try so hard to hide,
It will never go away,
In my heart it will stay.

I'm running out of ways,
To kill time and pass the days,
I don't know what I am going to do,
It has been a year since I lost you.

I feel so all alone inside,
Another thing I try to hide,
But it doesn't work because he knows,
And my pain it always shows.

It's so hard to let you go,
Because I never got to know,
What you'd grow up to be,
I know you have would have been happy.

No one knows how it feels,
Like being caught between two wheels,
Slowly I am ripped to pieces,
But I am the only one who misses.

I never got to see you smile,
I'd give anything to have a while,
To be with you and let you know,
That I wish you didn't have to go.