I Was Heartless

I Am a soldier at War

I have nightmares when i sleep
The deaths I witness play in my head over and over again

I am not myself
Nothing will ever be the same

I have scars
physically, mentally and emotionally

He was only about 8
It wasn't his fault

He was in the way and I was heartless
I can still hear his mother's cries

I didn't do anything
I was heartless

And I will always carry that with me
I was heartless