Wondered Why

I didn't know why

Wondered Why



I can't seem to get you out of my head

Even after the many times that you've hurt me

It's like I kept going back for the rush

The rush of this cruel game we play

I guess I was looking for a little lovin'

& you were looking for the chase

& I can't describe what I feel towards you

It's not love

It's not hate

It seems to be something in between

There are times when I want to hug you

& then I want to hurt you

and that repeats

But I can't bring myself to do either

It feels like you have a rope

Around this thing I call my heart

& every pull is pain

Every pull you try to draw me closer to your embrace

But I never get that far

I never have

& I was hoping things could change

But they don't

I was hoping you changed

But you didn't

I couldn't seem to get you off my mind

& I wondered why