Loneliness

About the awful loneliness after a death.

Loneliness

I feel so lonely since you've gone,
Even in a crowd.
Though friends and family surround me,
I stand by myself right now.

We gather to remember
And to talk of happier times;
And though I join in the laughter
All I really see are signs.

There's one less plate at the table;
One less Christmas gift.
No cheerful good morning greeting
To give me a needed lift.

I'm single - no longer a couple.
Decisions are mine alone.
Oh, God, this awful loneliness
Just hangs in the silence at home.

I have to fill this roaring void.
I must - I must - I must.
I'll cry again for a little while,
Then all again will be hushed.