To Feel

Loss of a loved one can destroy you

Death takes the insecurities out of the living
They say things get better
If you stop fighting the anger goes away
The tears simply dry up
A sheet of ice freezes over the emotions
Leaving you numb
But broken
Storm clouds hover amongst the stars
Waiting to creep back in

Time moves slowly
But still it moves
The further I get from you
The more it wounds
Life cruelly goes on
Birds still wake
This earth cries
The heavens shake

This world is cruel
This life restricts
Taking me further from you
With every waking breath
I would stop the living to have you back
Give my life for one more kiss

There is a beauty to the restless
We wander amongst the alive
But everyday I find
The further you are with time

I do not want to forget you
I don't wish for this numbness
Or this heavy ice I carry
"Oh" if I could just change this
If I could still feel
Rid me of this numbness
As emotions make you real
This distant dream you are becoming
Would never exist
Surely it is better to feel
Than live as this