Bad.

This could be bad.

This could be bad
Or it could be amazing.
Would they be mad?
How would they feel?

I’ll only try it
To see how it feels.
When will it hit?
Will I see things?

This is getting weird
And I kinda like it.
What do I fear?
What is fear actually?

I wanna get up
Off of this hard floor.
Where is my cup?
Am I even thirsty?

My mouth is dry
And my body is shaking.
Am I really high?
Who knows, who cares?

                   Now I’m over here
                              And here and maybe there.
                   Should I drink beer?
                   Will it cause problems?

    I’m moving too much
               And I can’t sit still.
WHAT DID I TOUCH!?
WHY AM I YELLING!?

It’s getting harder to
Breathe and it hurts badly.
What did I do?
Did I just fall?

I don’t even know
How many pills I took.
Am I moving slow?
Why was I alone?

Shouldn’t have done this
And I regret it now.
Is that the abyss?
Should I be scared?


Yes.