Hugs From Heaven

The dream I had the night after my grandmother passed away,

We sat facing each other
legs curled underneath
her eyes were full of life
her cheeks were rosy
she was a picture of health
she radiated such beauty
full of serenity
looking happy.

She held out her arms
told me I was beautiful
my eyes swell with tears
I told her she was beautiful
I lean forward into an embrace
not ghostly or whithering
we held onto each other
her cheek on my face

I still feel her nighty on my palms
we held onto each other
I knew it was my last hug
so I didn't want to let go
because I didn't get to see
I didn't get to hug
or say 'I love you'
I was too busy

Too busy with life
to be there for death
the biggest regret I'll ever maintain
I wont let myself be at peace
I wish she was here
now that she is gone
a jewel in the darkness
thats who she is.

She taught me her last lesson
never be too late
it's only me who sits alone
feeling the burning
yearning
unfinished business
just one last
hug from my granny