Aunty Anne

goodbye my old friend

Since the day you died
I seem to bottle up inside
and I just can't seem to cry
as the days drift of by,
for it doesn't seem real.

I don't want to let you go
and though so much has happened
I just want you to know
how much you meant to me,
through all these years of joy.

Sight, smell and touch
no longer feel real to me,
I look around and see the grief
that others express so openly,
something I just can't seem to do.

I just want to see you
simply say hello and talk
just like we used to do.
I just can't say
how much I'm missing you.

There's so much I want to say,
but I can't seem to reach you,
so much has happened
and I always thought you'd be there
when I needed someone to talk to.

Tears flow in streams, as I write here now
please, if you can hear me
tell me you understand.
Understand what I'm going through
now that I'm without you.

We seemed to talk so much
but now you're gone I've realized
how much I really loved you
and I just wish I had told you
how much you really mean to me.

*****
Ravyn Stone
Written: 28/03/99