Misery

This poem is about my gymnastics coach who commited suicide

Why am i a black hole
How can i live in here
My heart is a black hole
How can i make it reappear
My mind is completely empty
How can I fill it up again
I cannot stop weeping
Why am i so frightening
I feel like i'm invisible
My life is just a ghost
People see right through me
They go straight through my heart
I'm still living in that black hole
Why can't i just die
Take me out of my misery
I'll just close my eyes
Take a gun and shoot me
I don't want to live like this
I'll give myself 24 hours
Then i'll call the cops
Then take that gun and shoot me
My misery will now be gone